Our princess, Sarah Kamilia is 16!

As March approaches every year, Ibu will have this headache.

What to get you.  As you grew a year older, Ibu dah ran out of idea dah.

So, usually your lil sister, Syaza will be my eyes and ears – of what you want.

Nonetheless, on top of what your birthday present is, here is a little something that I wrote, coming straight from heart, from Ibu to Sarah.

Dear Sarah,


Everytime Ibu look at you, I see myself in you.  Seemingly hard as a rock, but truth is, your heart is like the soft jelly 🙂  Tears hardly rolls down your cheek, but sometimes Ibu sees your worry and sadness thru your eyes.

Wellll, mayyy beee Ibu cries a bit more than you do, but deep down I know you have so much love for everyone around you as you worry for almost everyone.  Even a stranger or a cat !

You just love too much.  But that is you.  Being the middle child probably taught you that sharing can be sweet and magical – as love is spread through sharing.

In return, your lil cousins love you the most.  That I am sure.  They bugged you.  They bullied you.  Yet they hugged and kissed you, the most 🙂

Your heart my be small, but Allah in all His Greatness, gives you so much space to love so much and so many, Alhamdulillah.

Dear Sarah,

Ibu once told you that ‘Sarah’ means happiness.  ‘Sarah’ is joy.  And whoever named Sarah, they just love to laugh.  And I think that is very true.  You have the loudest laugh in our home, not too mention your burp (oopsie).

And, even Ibu does not say it often or mocked you when you laughed out loud, but truth is Ibu loves it.  It makes me very happy to see you smiling and laughing away everytime.  I pray for you to have a happy life, always and forever.

Sarah kesayangan Ibu,

You are 16 this year.  You have outgrown my lap dah.  Well, just the lap yeah? Never my heart?  Please always know that in your heart.

You will always be my little Sarah that I love so much.  Who I probably scolded the most (sigh) but who is also always and will stand tall and strong next to me.  For that, Ibu thank you. Xixi!

As today is your birthday, you are off-lah from your routine chores at home hehe 😛

Just go and have fun.  Hope we will find you a present that you truly want for this year, yeah?

So, take care of yourself always, Sayang.  Study hard and smart.  I know in my heart, you will be okay and successful in both this dunia and hereafter, InsyaAllah.

Ya Allah Ar-Rahman,

Today is Sarah’s 16th birthday.  Kasih dan Rahmati lah anakanda kami.  Jadikan dia insan solehah di dunia dan di akhirat.

Amin Amin YRA.

Happy Birthday dear Princess!! and as your birthday present comes bit early, enjoy selfie-ing ya ! 🙂

Happy Birthday Kak Yong! You are officially 11 :)

We sang a birthday song yesterday, a day early to celebrate Kak Yong Damia Qaisarah bt Nasrul Rizal’s birthday (amboi complete hehe).

You actually turns 11 today on March 6, Kak Yong!  Alhamdulillah…

We had such a good time kan? With complete battalion of the dangdut gangs huhu and Mc Donalds could never go wrong for birthday celebrations, I supposed.

Nanti Ibu upload gambar lagi as Kak Sarah updates me.


Damia Qaisarah who we fondly called Kak Yong is the eldest child to my SIL, Awa.

Damia is like our very own.  She grows up right in front of our very own eyes (me and your beloved Pak Lang).  Every single second of your growing up years…

And Ibu must say this – yes being a child, have still have your tantrums, but you have outgrown your age Sayang.  Being the eldest, you are very responsible and loving, towards your sibs especially.  And helpful too with Mommy, I am sure Mommy and Daddy appreciate it very much.  May be they do not tell you often enough, but trust me, they do!

Ibu am very sure as years passed, you will be the daughter all mothers dream of, InsyaAllah.

Continue to be kind Sayang.  Ibu doakan Kak Yong terus cemerlang dan berjaya dalam hidup Kak Yong.  May Allah Ar Rahim protects you from all evilness in this world and look after you always.

If one day when you are all grown up and successful and stumbled into Ibu’s blog, please always know in your heart that, Ibu loves you very much.  You are like my very own.

Have a good day today Kak Yong ya,  (6 March) being a 11 year old. hehe

Go and have funnnn 🙂 and happy birthday again.

(Note to Kak Sarah – thank you for baking the cake for the Damia).  You are the best.

My Happy pills!

My happy pills every time.

#tb to January 2017 (major throwback).  Kuantan trip to send Along back.

Our Juniors captured from afar.  Tengah cari view best :)
Our Juniors captured from afar.  Depa tengah cari view best 🙂


One human being who has been super patient with my many tantrums.  Alhamdulillah for you, betterhalf.

And, our other happy pill – enjoying good food with loved ones.

#Gelorasteakshouse highly recommended in this photo. Malay owned, professional and food is up to our standard.  Alhamdulillah.  Not too pricey or too cheap neither. Affordable.


Good time with all sibs together.  Love you guys to bits.

Happy a resting weekend peeps.


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You know life is like that, and there will be ‘that’ time when you just feel like a failure.  Just at everything.

And whenever it does happen, this is my comfort place.  Where I came and write what is in my heart.  Next to my creator, this is where no one says anything, but just read.  To my words.  and probably  feel my cry 😦


It breaks my heart every time and every time.


Just be the best of yourselves.  Do not be like me 😦

Welcoming Muhammad Harraz!

Date of birth is Tuesday, 7 February 2017.

By the time, I snapped this photo yesterday (19 Feb), he is 13 days old.  Very tiny 🙂

His name is Muhammad Harraz.  I lost count to the numbers of cucu saudara that I have hehe but he is my number 26th (I think).

Muhammad Harraz is the eldest to my niece Nini and beloved hubby.

Syukur for you sayang, and your daddy in his prayer and azan whispered to your ear on the day you were born, had said it all to you – That there is no other god but Allah SWT and Muhammad is the messenger of Allah SWT.

May you will always be guided by your deen, Insya Allah!


The feeling is always happy and nice welcoming that tiny pair of fingers to this world.  Its always magical to feel Allah SWT touching your life, so kindly.

So, terus membesar dengan sihat dan kuat ya adik ticik.  We see you soon, again.

Love, Nenda.

Happy 15th Birthday Along Adam

Adam is another my anak fruit.  Jarang upload gambar dia rasanya ke sini.


So here goes, a birthday shout and song to Adam bin Abu Sufian, who arwah Atuk fondly called Adam Saja.  Why?

Well, he is named ‘just’ Adam.  So, Atuk tambah la, ‘saja’ to add more words to his name agaknya.  Atuk was wise 🙂

Al fatihah to Arwah Atuk and Nenek.

And as you turned 15 yesterday, always count your blessings Sayang ya, surrounded by so many love and joy.

Be a good boy ok and study hard.  Ibu loves you.

Hope you had fun!


Day 45, year 2017

Waking up today thinking about my children – Along, Abang Ngah, Kak Lang, Kak Chik and Busu.

My family.

The children were smaller in this picture.  One of the hari raya when arwah Atuk and Arwah Nenek were still around.

That one day when Arwah Atuk was still with us. Innalillahi wainna ilaihi rojiun.  Our doa for Atuk and Nenek always.



We alwaysssss wonder what we want in our life.  What is important.  What matters.

Sometimes, we go a bit distance, we enlisted all those items that we want and we need.  And often, we forget that one ‘item’ that is truly matters – our families.

As we are just normal people, often we take things/them for granted.  We thought, it is okay to just ignore that matter, for now at least.  Since we are busy with other matters that we ‘thought’ are more important – our work, our studies, our expenses, our assignments, our friends, our food, our teachers and so many other things, we ‘assume’ superior.

Then by the time, we want to look at that matter again, they are no longer there. Gone. Permanently.

You will never got to see them again.  Like arwah Atuk 😦

So what do we do? we cry?  That’s it?

Take this one day to ponder. Sigh.