Miza and Me

Salam Jumaat Mubarak 🙂

This is our firstborn, Miza Syakirah.

She wrote a lengthy appreciation post to her insta today together with below photo.  My first 2 seconds upon seeing her photo, I said in my heart, “Ya Allah, she looks exactly like me”.. 🙂

And so the myth says, if muka anak perempuan sama dengan muka Ibunya, panas lah, asyik gaduh la, this la that la.  Hehe

Ok let me confirm this about us – tru our own experience it is ya 🙂

Yes, we look very much alike (dah kata mak anak, satu acuan la kan).  On top notch, kalau ikut tahun kelahiran Cina, I falls under the zodiac of a dog.  She is also a zodiac of a dog.  Ok need to put more?  She is the eldest and I am the youngest, we could both be spoiled by parenting.  She is a Gemini that says strong character and attention seeker, well so am I.  I am a Leo maaa !


But truthfully said,  we just love each other too much!!.  I know she does not say it very often (so am I), but we love each other more than we love ourselves..

I have her in each of my solat and prayer, and I am very sure, she does  me too 🙂

So do we disagree? Do we fight?  Of course we do.  We are normal people with feelings and emotions.  But, we are sane people and rationale.  We speak our mind (mostly I do-lah kan hihi), but that’s about it.  We forgive and definitely forget soon after.

Years had passed and our baby girl dah blossomed into a mature beautiful woman dah today, Alhamdulillah.

Miza is a jovial, healthy, hyperactive and too kind of a person.  And Alhamdulillah she is loved by so many wherever she goes and be.

And InsyaAllah, seperti janji Rasulullah SAW, she and her other two sibs, Sarah Kamilia and Syaza Irdina InsyaAllah will be our tickets to Jannah…

  • Dengan sabda Rasulullah shallallahu alaihi wa sallam,

من كان له ابنتان فأحسن إليهما كن له سترا من النار

“Siapa yang memiliki dua anak perempuan dan berbuat baik kepada keduanya, maka keduanya akan menjadi penghalangnya dari neraka.”

Demikian pula jika dia memiliki saudara perempuan, bibi atau semacamnya, lalu dia berbuat baik kepadanya, maka kami harapkan mereka semuanya akan menjadi penyebabnya masuk surga. Kerana apabila saja seseorang berbuat baik kepada mereka, maka dirinya akan mendapatkan pahala yang besar dan terhalang dari api neraka dengan amal baiknya’.



Sarah & Friends, together forever gurls!

Allah SWT is too kind with me.  Alhamdulillah.

Sometimes, rasa kecikkk sangattttt, rasa berdosaaaa sangat, for a sinner like me, yet Allah SWT Ar Rahman gives me so muchhh MasyaAllah 😦

And so today, Anakanda Sarah Kamilia’s day pulak.  For her hardwork and success in PT3 last year, her school recognized and rewarded her today.  And her best-test friends too.  Thank you Allah.  Thank you!!

Ini depa pagi tadi … 🙂

Nota gambar from right : (1) Irinna (2) Nurin (3) Sarah Dangdut 😛 (4) Ami (birthday today huhu) (5) Wani

Five of them are bee-ef-ef dari sekolah rendah to sekolah menengah.  And I adore their friendship.  Reminds me/Ibu of my very own.  I have a few friends too but enough, Alhamdulillah 🙂

Berkawan lah baik-baik sayang.  InsyaAllah sahabat-sahabat mu yang baik akan membawa mu ke Syurga Allah one day, InsyaAllah.

So congratulation girls for your PT3 2016 results.  Go and pursue your dreams !! and may your friendship last forever in this duniya and hereafter !

Nanti kita gi makan eskrem ek.  Ngan mommi mommi kamu yang juga berbangga dengan kejayaan kamu today.  Alhamdulillah.

Arwah Shiin sudah meninggalkan kita semua :(

An old dear friend passed away yesterday 😦

And upon her passing, had also reunited us all again – ITM CP/CK Class of 1988 – 1991.

Allahu ! It was simply magical of how very sad and gloomy  day can crack a bit of smile to our sad faces  – when we are all coming together for Allahyarham.  We were tearful and sad and happy at the same time that we gathered again and cited our Yassin and sedekah ayat-ayat suci Al-Quran 😦 … on that sad day for her.

Our classmate, someone who we used to brush shoulders with, spoken with, shared life with (sigh 😦 ) is now gone, taken too early…

And I just have to keep on telling myself Inna Lillahi Wa Inna Ilayhi Raji’un… again and again, to stops tears from rolling down my cheek… that her time has come, and surely one day, it will be my turn too..

Inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji’un ( انّا للہ و انّا الیہ راجعون ).

“Sesungguhnya kami adalah kepunyaan Allah dan kepada Allah jualah kami kembali.”

(Sigh) 😦 had her face in my head.  Her face during her dying day, when we visited her last on Sunday, 9th April.

And I have her face in my head right now, in that Bilik Jenazah, dimandikan dan dikafankan.. 😦

That face that I used to know, who used to be my friend… … And I guess it must be my age, her passing really hit me.  I was teary and feeling too sad 😦

But Alhamdulillah ramainya ahli keluarga, saudara mara dan sahabat handai Allahyarhamah yang hadir in both hospital room and Masjid.  The hospital room was packed, the masjid was full with families and friends too.

And Alhamdulillah, from her families –  we came to know that her Sakaratul Maut was made easy and kind.  Alhamdulillah, Syukur Ya Allah Ar Rahman Ar Rahim – Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pengasih dan Maha Penyayang….

She was gone, with everyone who she loved dearly next to her.

InsyaAllah, for all the pain and hardship that Allah SWT tested you with in this duniya will have its reward in your Akhirat, my friend.  I have faith!!

That is what Allah SWT promise both you and me…

So I bid my farewell to a friend yesterday… 😦 *crying

Sahabatku, Allahyarhamah Nazatul Shirin binti Mokhtar – damai dan tenanglah kamu di sana.  Selesai lah sudah urusan dunia mu.  Doa kan kami sentiasa juga…

Ber isti rehatlah bersama para solihah sementara kedatangan kami.

Ya Allah Al Malik, Al Mutakabbir, kami mohon ampunkanlah segala dosa-doa sahabat kami Ya Allah.  Kasih dan kasihanilah beliau.  Redha lah dengan segala sedekah jariah and amalan baik beliau, sesungguhnya dari Kamu kami datang Ya Allah, dan kepadaMu lah kami Pulang jua..

Our friend, Shiin passed away peacefully at 10.22 am yesterday 10 April 2017..

Many of us were there yesterday, the faces from the past and we were hugging each other and giving each other strength to remind us all of our friendship and Silaturrahim that we used to have and will now continue to bloom.  May Allah SWT also showers us with barakah with our friendship.

And when its our time, may our friends also will be there to spare their bacaan Yassin, doa and say goodbyes.. 😦

Al Fatihah… 😦

Riadah and birthday :)

Salam Jumaat Mubarak lovelies,

Much had happened after my last entry.  Life is pretty interesting with lotsa things happening around you kan.  Alhamdulillah.

Ada baik.  Ada yang tak berapa baik.  but well, all have its value and story to tell.

28 March 2017, my dearest bee-ef-ef birthday. 

Walau sampai sekarang kami belum  berkesempatan ‘jumpa’, I send her my doa and love on that special day.  Walau dia rasa dia muda lagi, but I will be her constant reminder to always take care of her health.  When you are sick, I guess you and me are no good to anyone.


So speaking of sihat, gini lah ghuper kami last wiken.

Cold day in cyber.  Few bunch of happy people 🙂

Our awesome Razin Hafizi @ Busu :) – His storytelling story…

Our youngest ace, Razin Hafizi is truly a gift from Allah SWT.  12 years ago when we got him, it was almost impossible as I was on my contraceptive pills as me and hubby thought, with 4 aces at the time, our family was complete.

Story cut short, I got pregnant anyway in 2004 in our new home, then.  We were shocked, bit worry (at the time as I usually had terrible pregnancies) but never we did not cite our Syukur Alhamdulillah to Allah SWT, we have faith that as He wills it, it has to be the best, for us.

Razin came the easiest.  Delivery was made easy.  Within 2 hours, he popped out already hehe.  And being the biggest too!!  A bouncing 3.75 kg baby!

Being our youngest, he gets away with lotsa of things at home.  Its like his Kak Long repeats herself.  New toys.  New gadgets.  New games. You name it – he got it all.

He is 12 years old today, all well and healthy Alhamdulillah.

And yesterday marked another happy and memorable day for us in the family – rasa syukur sangat-sangat.  Allah SWT that has given us so much!!

Razin was chosen and represented his school yesterday to this ‘Pertandingan Bercerita Bahasa Inggeris – The Prophet Story sempena Karnival Dakwah Sekolah-Sekolah Malaysia’.

Let me share few photos first from yesterday ya.

*We were getting him all dressed up with his new baju melayu bought specially for the competition.  Ayah being the biggest supporter balik from Kuantan terus angkut kami gi carik baju melayu.  Ayah memang best lah!

Then later Ustazah sent us this gambar, while he was getting ready for the stage.

Ok this is a special tribute to his Ustazah/Teacher that he called Ustazah Aen.  This teacher is random.  I have met a lot of teachers throughout my life.  My own teachers, my children’s teachers, in fact I have lotsa good friends who are teachers. Not to mention in our family pun, there are so many teachers too.

But this Ustazah Aen is one of the best that I have met.  We are blessed to have her for our son.  She is very dedicated, too hardworking and passionate with what she chose for her life – teaching!

I must say this to her – she had taught my son a valuable lesson – that hard work pays.  That if you are polite and dedicate, Allah will wills you what you want.  They both had long hours training, preparing for this competition, regardless of weekends – as the time was short for practise.

You see, Razin has always been playful when it comes to school 🙂  Ambik acuh tak acuh sahaja.  But with this Ustazah, he becomes someone else- lah.  Our dearest son begitu dedicated dan rajin melatih dan mencabar diri dia sendiri untuk Berjaya.  Thumbs up both of you!!

To Ustazah who we are forever terhutang budi – thank you! Mudahan Allah SWT will reward you awesomely too for all your kindness and sincerity 🙂

Mudahan ukhwah dan sillaturahim kita tidak terhenti di sini.  Doakan Razin selalu and to Razin too, teachers are like your parents.  Always respect them and doa for them.

Razin, live during the competition day, yesterday.  Ustazah sent us so many videos that im unable to upload here 🙂 We both were thrilled throughout hehe.  We were back and forth texting 😛

The result came out.

And he did it! And I was over the mooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! *dancing.

Bukan happy sebab dia menang tempat ke 3 out of almost 20 participants from various schools,  but happy that he finally found his forte!.

He was confident and it was a seamless story telling.  Alhamdulillah and Syabas anakanda ku sayang.  Ibu doakan Razin terus bersemangat and taste more success in both this dunia, and hereafter.

And when I received this text from ustazah, I said – Syukur Alhamdulillah Ya Allah.  For both Razin Hafizi our son, and Ustazah Aen !

Arwah Ayahanda Ali bin Salleh

Dengan lafaz Bismillahi rrohma nirrahim.  Dengan Nama Allah yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang.

This is my dad.

Ayah, I called him.  His name is Ali bin Salleh.

He passed away on 15 March 2001, only five days after Sarah was born.  So sixteen years ago it has been, today 😦

Innalillahi wainna ilaihi rojiun.

Alfatihah to arwah Ayah.  Sesungguhnya janji Allah SWT itu pasti.  Dan hanya kepadaNya kita semua akan kembali, kekal dan abadi.

And everytime on Sarah’s birthday (10/10), it is like a reminder for me of him.  Both me and Sarah will talk about him. I will rewind the story about my dad and his passing  – who passed away only after 5 days she arrived into this world.

He never got the chance to meet or hold our *Sarah 😦 …..

My dad was a tall handsome gentleman with sharp face bone features.

In this dunia, arwah my dad and arwah my mom were separated as their jodoh tidak kesampaian.  Not all marriage is a bed of roses..  Hence, being the youngest I have the fewest memories of him compared to my other sibs.

But I have no bad feeling or gestures towards him.  He was my only dad, dunia dan akhirat.  Allah SWT in all His Greatness and Wisdom prepares something else for us all, InsyaAllah.

And in every of my solat, I will cite his name and pray that Allah SWT will reward him Jannah. Both him and my arwah mom, InsyaAllah.

Bersemadi lah dengan aman bersama para solihin, Ayah.  InsyaAllah kami pasti datang menyusulmu.

Al Fatihah 😦 …