2011, 2012

Never say goodbyes..

Until we meet again, perhaps?…

As we are into our final hours of twenty eleven, I cite my syukur Alhamdulillah as every single day of it has been lived!

Another meaningful year that it has been and has brought me closer to my well being. Of being an insan, a wifey, a mother, a sister, a friend…

Every single day in 2011 has had a story to tell. And it has always been a good day, Alhamdulillah. Yeah sure I had my downs, but how else not to be happy as each day, Allah SWT spares me chance to live it, right?

Like everyone else, 365 hari di 2011 membawa pelbagai cerita ceria dan duka. I am not spared!

Pelbagai kenangan dan peristiwa 2011 akan selamanya terpahat di hati.

And I wish to carry all those memorable moments with me into my 2012.

Mudah-mudahan 2012 menjanjikan sesuatu yang lebih indah! InsyaAllah!!

Good bye twenty eleven. Welcome twenty twelve!

My father (in-law) had left me :(

Bismillahirrohmanirrahim,

Just a brief entry.

Dengan rasa penuh redha tapi hiba 😦 to just inform semua yang mengenali saya dan family, that Ayahanda kami yang amat dikasihi, Allahyarham Mamat bin Jaya telah pergi menemui Allah SWT yang Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang pada 6.45 pm on Sunday, 18 December 2011.

Hani mohon keampunan bagi diri sendiri dan Allahyarham Ayahanda Mentua, jika ada kelukaan yang terpahat di hati 😦

Alhamdulillah syukur di atas semua doa, ziarah dan sedekah. Mudahan Allah SWT mensejahterakan hidup kita semua, InsyaALLAH!

Hani dengan ini tidak akan berada di sini buat seketika 😦

Dear Ayah, tahlil today is from a daughter-in-law, who has become your very own – who is so syukur for di alam ini berkesempatan merencana kehidupan bersama Ayahanda dan rasa terima kasih yang tidak pernah akan ada titik noktahnya and I miss you already…. 😦

Al Fatihah !

Saya sangat happy!

These past few days have been heavenly.

Rasa terawang-awang gembira dan syukur yang amat sangat !!

Loads of joy and happiness had taken place. Too much. Sampai tak tahu which to be shared first 😀

Hmm.

Lets start with the most recent perhaps.

Our eldest daughter is finally back home from SEPINTAR after her SPM. She finished her last paper on Tues and we fetched her yesterday.

Hilang sudah nerbes mak 😛

Macam I pun ambik SPM hokay? Hehe. Now I know the feeling bila anak ambik SPM!

I am sure Miza had done her best. So now we all doa banyak-banyak and leave it in the hand of our Creator. May Allah SWT memberkati cita-cita anakanda and spared her the ultimate success!!

From her school, we terussss pergi makan and watched the ntah-hafe-hafe “Breaking Dawn” that she been wanting to watch. No offense eh Edward’s die-for fan. But seriously, I personally think the much anticipated movie was a let down.

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Ok, so welcome home baby!

Berundur beberapa hari yang lepas pulak, was this story pulak. Rombongan che kiah telah selamat sampai dari Kelantan again, for another grand wedding celebration in KL.

Lets tengok gambar dulu?

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The wedding, of course.

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My girls with their beloved cuz, Mimi who is now dearly missed and that cute baby is Yayan!

One of major do that has been planned way ahead before the arrival of rombongan che kiah was to have a fiesta. ‘Pesta Nasi Kerabu’ nama dia. Hehe.

For record purposes, my sister cooked the best nasi kerabu in the world!! Tak caya? Tanya semua orang ini 😀

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Of couse, the pre photo of the assistants while at work … Thank you Na, Mimie and Abang Ngah!! Oh yeah, Sarah & Syaza too.

Dah lama rasanya, we did not have that many of saudara-mara di rumah kita.

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Ok, this entry has exceeded its usual size and to be continued..

🙂 azan subuh dah berlalu pergi, jom solat!

Cerita bergambar

Took leave. Bawak rombongan che kiah jalan-jalan.

Penat yang amat xtreme. But happy and puas 😀

Tengok gambar je eh?

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Ini Ajin & Ammar. Sekarang macam glue together. Hehe

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Ini Rayyan buchuk!

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Kak Aja yang sungguh sayang dengan Rayyan!

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Lompat tinggi-tinggi! Weeeee!

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Ajin pun!!

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Sukeeenyeer 🙂

Nanti kita gi zoo pulak ok??

(this is a phone entry, so please mind the quality). Hiks

Midnight blues

Note – This is a midnight entry @ 0120 hrs with a tired body but a spinning mind.

Alhamdulillah, ALLAH SWT mengizinkan Hani & hub and the girls menziarah menghadiri tahlil 7 hari Arwah sahabat, Pak Habib. Yus masih sugul obviously but I know her heart is strong as an ox! Al Fatihah.

What I wanted to spill at this hour is this. Memang dunia ini amat kecil rupanya. Out of many moment and episodes, I met an old friend who I have not met for many many years at the tahlil. She has not changed a bit! Except for anak-anak we all yang sudah besar semua over time! Both mine and hers. Her eldest girl vividly remembers me through some of her childhood photos. The last holiday we used to go together were Haadyai some years back. We both got pregnant when we came back from that holiday! Haha 😀

It has been 9 years then and obviously there are so much to tell. In that constraint moment that we had, she spared me her agony through some sad stories of her bitter divorce…Allah huakbar, sedih sangat Hani mendengarnya…

The thing that stunned me the most is her courage and will to move on from all the heartbreaking and tormenting life experience! She may be one petit woman but the heart that she has? Beyond my wildest imagination!

She is now apart from her own 3 children, caring for her ‘madu’ punya anak who eventually abondoned the child when her ex-husband and her then ‘madu’ also were divorced!

You cared for a child from another ‘woman’ who once ripped your entire happiness!??

Amazing-kan of what a woman can do? This a true example of ‘tangan yang menghayun buai boleh menghayun dunia’!

Before we parted and bid our salam and good byes, I asked her, how did she does it.

And she said this to me, “Kita kena ilhlaskan hati Hani menerima Qada dan Qadar Allah. Baru Allah juga akan ikhlas dengan kita”.

But again, matter of the heart, only she knows…

We hugged and parted with promise to meet again soon.

Hmmmm.

And, those utterred words are still knocking in my head!

Good night peeps…

Harga sebuah bahagia

A friend once said, “I will never compromise my happiness”.

And I stood to oppose, at that time.  I thought, happiness was very subjective and general.  And I also thought, it is not ‘the’ most important thing in this life. There are other things that are more important; your wealth perhaps.

I also assumed, ‘being happy’ and ‘wanting to be happy’, were two different matters and with least priority in life.

But now, I must swallow my own thinking and assumptions.  Being happy and wanting to be happy ARE actually the same thing (in my personal opinion).  But, the most important thing is that I should have NEVER compromised happiness. I know that now.

As being happy rules every other things in our life.  It has to be!

Being and wanting to be happy is also one of the key to our existence and well being in this short life.  Once we are stood happy and stable with our emotions, the rest eventually becomes smoother.

Seperti sekarang, saya sangat happy! 🙂

Rasa sangat tidak sabar and menunggu itu memang amat menyeksakan ! Di tambah pulak dengan soalan-soalan cepumas dari anakanda Razin Hafizi.. hehe.

“Lagi berapa hari Ibu”.. aiyo, he actually started the countdown!

To what?

Well for Razin for this boy to arrive 🙂  This is his cousin from Kelantan – Ammar Danish.

So let me just end this entry up to here.  Nanti if idea bertandang lagi, kita sambung ek.

🙂 suke suke suke.

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I once wrote a poem. About a princess and her grandma.

That ENTRY @ ‘Nenda dan Anakanda Puteri’ is a click away. Those baits meant a lot to me. Coming straight from heart! Now that grandma had passed away, leaving the princess, Sarah Kay with only memories to treasure…

I stumbled upon that poem again as I was recallling the early years of myself being a wifey and daughter-in-law to a new ”mom and ‘dad’. Things were raw and tough. I was trying hard to fit in and ran into numerous emotional barricades with my new life then.

The years sailed through and our future is clearer now and both me and my betterhalf are adamant that things are going to be alright afterall. Alhamdulillah.

But, menipulah kalau tidak ada fists and fights along the way kan?

Sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit per…

But coming out from all those real life experiences, who has I become? hmmm. Sturdier and robust? 🙂

I am more prepared for the challenges that are coming my way, InsyaAllah. With my children especially, now that all of them are growing up into a new phase of their lives – the teenage years 🙂 I am layering the foundation to be able to through the ‘globalisation’ of the world with them. Life is tough, and gets tougher each passing time.

I was at the graduation for my eldest yesterday. Trend budak hari ini, habis belajar form five, dah graduate siap-siap. To my baby girl, your journey is about to embark sweetie and I am just a breath away, always.

Congratulations baby on your graduation from SEPINTAR. May Allah SWT fulfills all the dreams that your heart ever desires!