I have this frustration. And I do not know how to talk about it. Letting out has not been my thingy.
Hmmmm. Have you ever wonder why when everything seems right and purfect with your life, yet you feel something is missing somewhere, this emptiness?. To make it even worst, you do not even know what it is. But deep down, you are just feel sad and empty.
I have this one friend. Can be quite a long time ago. My best friend in the entire universe. My shoulder to cry on. My ear to cry my heart out. Well, kinda ny chauffeur, brought me here and there that I need to go.
We were often mistaken as lovebirds but we were not, never were and never will. Its just plainly a platonic relationship.
But something terrible happened in between the time and he is gone now. No longer my friend. They are right you know, the one that you care most is the one who will hurt you deepest.
These past days, I have been feeling kinda low and sad, and I missed him. I missed just having him around. I used to ‘mengarah’ him like for almost everything and he would just do it for me happily. For some reasons, he just would.
I don’t know. I just don’t know. Wish I can pull back all those lost times….