I like to think I am a survivor, afterall I have gone through so much in life. Experiences does make me wiser really. Mistakes that happened along the way is to be learnt. Never collapse.
But one thing that I could never deal is this sad feeling of being ‘second’. Its a terrible feeling really. Why cant I be informed? Or does not really necessary for me to be informed? I Feel like crying out loud and wish both time and things can be reversed and I am the champion again..
Sigh. And now today, this is what I feel so suddenly. Perhaps, I am asking too much. Who do I think I am anyway at the very first place.
And I hate this feeling. It is very depressing. And I wish today passes quickly. 😦