From Where I am Standing


From where I am standing
December is almost here in no time
Time does fly afterall…
Many paths that I took
Many things exacuted its roles and actions
Some I wish to shoulder and carry on
Some I wish to leave far behind

Whilst, looking forward for more happiness
While heavily carrying these many things
Inside my heart and my mind…

Sigh, again


I Am Going To Be Busy

I am going to JB tomorrow for a field trip. Should be back later in the evening.

I am planning to catch a movie later early part of the night. Heard ‘Enchanted’ is opening tomorrow

I got my favourite niece, Nini with me for her semester break, so we are planning few things for the weekend. It is school holidays anyway eh.

Come Monday, I will be on leave. If jadik as planned, are we going to Nilai 3 gang? hehehe

Oh and come Friday, my sister and family are arriving from Kelate for a short holiday with us here. I will be taking leave again for few days. Should things go as planned, we might end up in Strawberry Park. Yaaay… 😀

Hmm… I love it when I got things to do…

What Was I Thinking Today…

I dont like to judge people and I dont like to be judged.

I always believe that every single human being in this world are special in their own way.  Any normal person blessed with ‘aqal’, I believe have reasons for whatever decision or action that they take. Some may end up being responsible for it and some may just close their one eye and walk away.

I did many things in my history of living. Bad and good things. I got my reasons that only I understand. Some, may be done with a clear conscience and some may not. But I want to be responsible for whatever decision that I made in my life.

So, I swear to God, that I hate it, hate it when people judge me.  I know I am not alone in this life, I shared my life with my other half, my family, my kids, my friends but whoever you are in my life, please do not judge me. In return I dont judge people also. Why? Simply because everybody has reasons. I dont know, so I just keep quiet.


Just my thought for today. I am fine. Nothing happened but keep on thinking about it.

Sarah’s Little Graduation


Sarah has always been the ‘dangdut one’ in my house.

To make thing even worse 😀 with her then, coming graduation day which was eventually held on Saturday, 24 November 2007, she was basically singing and dancing to every opportunity that she had in the house.

The joyful Graduation Day for Tadika Minda Aktif, was held successfuly yesterday.

Must say, I could not be happier looking at her that day, enjoying herself to some beautiful kids song. She was dancing too. She and her friends really really had a good time 🙂

As usual, I m very delighted to share some of her graduation photo from her Tadika for two years, Tadika Minda Aktif. Both me and her dad are so thankful to the teachers who have been very patient and hardworking with my Sarah especially and the tadika mostly.

And to Sarah Kamilia who has successfully completed her pre-school programme, congratulations darling ! I am so so proud of you!!


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Congrats Sarah !! 😀

If Only They Know..


Often I heard people say, if we went through hardship in life, we would appreciate this life better. And, I’m not too sure how far this is true though. 

Life to me is one big word.  Life is me and me is life. That kinda big.

I gone through a lot in life really and with that, my guess I can be in that group of people who said, ‘you appreciate life better through hardship. There are quite a number of  ‘too’ sad stories in my life that I do not wish to utter a word about it ever. I wish to fold them nicely and let them buried in one corner of my heart silently.

But every once in awhile when needs arised for me to actually explain what life is all about to my little ones, it will eventually remind me of lot of things including those that I do not wish to remember.

I realized kids nowadays are clueless about anything. 

They know they need to achieve something and parents have made it easy for them. Me, for instance has always made things easy for my juniors.  I do not have much choice really as I am fighting my own battle between my responsibility as a mother and my wanting for them to learn things on their own. Sigh.

But there is just no word for me to find and use to get my messages accrosed, that noone ever says that life will be easy and it will worth better with hardship. But believe me, I know this is very true, through my very own experience and hardship in life, so who is better to tell you then me huh?  Believe me, I know that my ever-ending audio lectures & nagging sounded very very bo-ring and bla bla but how I wished you guys know what life is all about …

Hmmm.. Am I worrying too much?

I hope that one day, my kids especially will come to their better senses that life is indeed very hard 😦  The time will come for decision making and struggle. Dont ever ever take just anything at all for granted.  Today is for sure, but tommorow is for noone to tell.  You might need to be nasty when its due.

Even not too far from all these, I pray and I know they will be fine, insyaAllah.

Wallahualam. Sigh.

When Words Speak Louder Then Actions

There is this girl. Young and recently got married.

We are not that close but somehow she came to me recently and asked, “Do you think I should stay with my mother-in-law tak kak”.

For a moment I was like huh? And of course, prior to that question that she popped up, there were couple of times when we actually had bit-here-and-there chats about the same issue.

Honest, I dont know what to answer her then.  After gasping for air for a while trying to say the right sentence to her, I plainly said, “Well, I am not alim myself, but this is not what Kak Hani said but Allah said, somewhere in the holy al-quran about a relationship with in-laws. About what Allah said if got the kemampuan, please take your wife out and stay on your own”.

That was two weeks ago.

Today, she called me and said, she eventually did move in with her mother-in-law after the conversation that we had that one particular day, and last night, both her and hubby packed their things again and left the mother-in-law house in the middle of the night??


Feeling bad for not knowing what to answer her, I simply said, “Dik, hidup ni macam roda jer. Now that both of  you are angry, lets cool off bit, but at the end of the day, you are still the anak and she is still the mother”.

I continued, “Dont la lama-lama, nanti balik, minta ampun and resume life as normal kay”.

We both hang up the phone.

Piece of advice for myself : When words speaks louder then the actions, go back to roots. Hanya Allah yang Maha Mengetahui… Amin.

KerisPatih @ Tapi Bukan Aku

I had posted the lyric for this song earlier but without the clip.

I realized many come here looking for this song and perhaps the lyric.  So, I decided to put up both.

I love this one too and currently is also acting as a ringer tone for my mobile 🙂

Cool eh. 

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Tak inginku paksakan cinta ini… ii…
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Khianati rasa demi keinginan semu
Lebih baik jangan mencintai aku dan semua hatiku
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Sekalipun aku takkan pernah mencoba kembali padamu
Sejuta kata maaf terasa kan percuma… aaa…
Serasa ku t’lah mati untuk menyadarinya…

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Semoga saja kan kau dapati hati yang tulus mencintaimu
Tapi bukan aaaakuuuu…

Berakhirlah sudah semua kisah ini dan jangan kau tangisi lagi
Sekalipun aku takkan pernah mencoba kembali padamu
Sejuta kata maaf terasa kan percuma…
Serasa ku t’lah mati untuk menyadarinya…

Berakhirlah sudah semua kisah ini dan jangan kau tangisi lagi
Sekalipun aku takkan pernah mencoba kembali padamu
Sejuta kata maaf terasa kan percuma
Serasa ku t’lah mati untuk menyadarinya…