Self Discovery

I was under quite ‘a’ stress yesterday.  Somethin’ came up and I was sad. I was misjudged and I did not like it.

So, I soaked myself in my room. Thinking. Talking to myself. Cursing. Crying. Trying so hard to fall asleep.

For a moment then, I realized I was actually doing my self discovery. I realized I was mainly talking about myself, myself and only myself  – about what my life has been all about.  About the choices that I have made in my life and am living with them.  About me surviving this whole episodes in MY life. Sigh.

I was cursing again and again at the same time. To myself mostly. God, I was stressed. And I terlelap while doing it?

Anyway, I managed to drag myself out of the bed this morning, still felt deep sad. Termenung lagi. Thinking lagi. Discovering lagi.

During this ‘self discovery’, I realized how much I went through in life. The ups. The downs.  I valuate. I telan. I terima. I redha. One thing, I know life is indeed not about all what I want. Its life as it is!.

Sometimes I feel so alone in a crowd. I feel numb in noises.

I took a long long deep breath. Try to be bit positive. Another long deep breath and hey, there are good things also for sure. May be it was just not my time  yet. So, I got up. Capai towel. Headed to the bathroom. And I took a longggggggggggggg hot shower this morning.

I did realize one thing now.

It is indeed good to do a self discovery every once in a while. Its like looking deep into your own self, feel your own pain and joy. You will appreciate things better. You WILL  feel better. Well, I know i did. 🙂

My decision for today : Lets have a good day ahead people.

An email from a friend

Good morning people !

I was away yesterday from the office on a day office visit. Came back today and see this in my ‘inbox’ which I think is very interesting. A short e mail from a good friend. Lets share. 🙂

The dictionary is the only place where success comes before work. Hard work is the price we must pay for success. You can accomplish anything if you’re willing to pay the price.


   —  Vince Lombardi (1913-1970)

My Nisfu Syaban

This is my personal journal.

This is not my first Nisfu Syaban definitely. I used to fast when it is nisfu syaban. Why I fast. Well everybody does. For pahala of course. So thats why I did it also. Personally, I must admit sometimes, of course as a Muslim, I ‘thought’ I know what is Nisfu Syaban, but do I really ‘know’ and ‘understand’ or menghayati the meaning of today? Hmmm.  Perhaps I have taken too many things for granted eh.

Anyway my Nisfu Syaban is  ‘the’ day when my old book is sealed and my new book will be opened tomorrow InsyaAllah. And this Nisfu Syaban is slightly different for me. I recited my yasin and not wanting to boast, but it felt good. I indeed another year older and wiser, hopefully. Amen. Well, like I said in the beginning this is my personal journal, so to me, I am syukur that I did that and hopefully, Allah will give me more opportunity to do more in my remaining years that I have.

I prayed for myself, my family, my parents and my dear muslim and muslimat friends. May Allah memberkati all of us with His kind mercy and love.  And lets look forward for a better barakah years ahead…

Lelaki Ini :)

Lelaki ini – Anuar Zain

Kasih

kenanganku
Ingatkah saat saat dulu

Kasih, apakah dirimu
Merasakan semua itu

Ke mana pun langkahku pergi
Ku masih melihat bayanganmu cintaku
Dan kemana pun arah anginku berlari
Hati ini masih kau miliki

Lelaki ini yang selalu mencintamu
Selalu, tanpa ragu
Lelaki ini yang selalu memuja
Hanya dirimu
Yang bertakhta dalam sanubariku
Sanubari ku

Aku yang mencintakan mu
Hanya dirimu…

Karena cintaku, tak berbatas waktu
Karena cintaku, tak mengenal jenuh hatimu
Hatimu…
 

🙂

Call me hopeless romantic ke apa ke, but music has always calm me down.

And this song, personally I think is nice. I love it and of course, I dont mind Anuar Zain neither 🙂

Saya Anak Malaysia !

Hello people

I must say I am quite a patriotic person 🙂 At times when I actually ‘into’ merdeka conversation with my kids, I can feel my bulu roma all meremang-remang and even worse, if my mood really into it, I can even have this tiny tears rolled down my cheek. Now tell me, is that patriotic or what? Hehe

Well, 31st August is nearing again. So we celebrate our 50th years this year eh. What a remarkable number. Congrats Malaysia and Malaysians!

There are massive stories on what we have achieved from the day one we Merdeka till today. The amount of sacrifices those before us who fought for our beloved Malaysia that noone could ever deny. Not me neither. No doubt about that.

One thing about us, being a typical, modern and young Malaysian, I know come Merdeka, there would be times  we ask ourselves, we ask our kids, we ask our community, we ask our leaders, we ask our bosses, our colleagues, our friends  what have we contributed to fill up the true meaning of Merdeka. And there would be all sort of answers. You name it.

What I want to share with you today in conjunction with this joyful celebration is the fact that way back in my Kampung, called Kampung Banggol in Kelantan, after 50 years of Merdeka, my sister and family among one of many familes that yet to enjoy what we called ‘air paip’!. Believe it people, they are still using air perigi! Well, yeah to some who got bit of money, they would buy some sort of an engine so that the water would come tru the normal pipes, but fact is it is still from air perigi!  And to add to the juicy part of this little ‘discovery’ is that Kampung Banggol is only 10 minutes drive to bandar Kota Bharu.

Yeah yeah, I am sure many others shared the same experience still after all these years. You might say, ala… so what?  Got what poorer than that.  Yup very true indeed people. But did it ever occur to you, we actually have been merdeka for the SOLID FIFTY YEARS ALREADY ! 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11,12,13, …..23,25,26…34,35,36… OMG.  Hmmm

Yep true so what right, but what is so sad is that (well to me at least), while I am being so emotional and so patriotic about the whole Merdeka thing, but hey are we truly merdeka when while spending millions every year for a huge merdeka celebration, bit of us Malaysian are still risking their lives by drinking some air perigi without proper cleansing procedure and something we called ‘clorin’?

To tell you quite honestly, everytime come 31st August, I would proudly shout to the world, Hey, Saya Anak Malaysia..and I am merdeka… but kakak saya for the past fifty years still using air perigi for her daily usage 😦

Now I am sad.

Well anyway, to her and others in Kampung Banggol, lets pray hard that we do not have to wait for another 50 years to enjoy the air paip eh.  Amen….. oh and, Merdeka ? Merdeka? Merdeka ?? 

I hit my 1,000 today :)

🙂

Guess what??

Somethin’ Light hits its 1,000 visitors today, must say after less then two months. Errr got aaa 1,000 people read this crap blog of mine. Ha ha ha. :))

But anyway, 3/4 of the visitors i know are my regular dear visitors. Hey gang, I think you know who you are. He he… So, what do I say to u guys but thank you. Infact, thank you very much. It felt good really. On my part, I felt much better everytime after I penned something down. Its like, I m feeling and going tru it, and how nice would it be, that I am actually sharing it with you people.

So, let me celebrate eh !

Take care and I love you guys… 🙂

Good husbands vs Great Husbands

Hey guys 🙂

Today is a ‘very much’ day out for me and my batalion. We did sejuta menda. Macam macam ada. And upon returning, I can hardly move a toe, so I grabbed some old magazines and my wishful thinking was to just terlelap with it. However, this one piece of article that I read, I thought contains a very interesting knowledge (for me at least). And as usual, care to share with me ? :).

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