Our awesome Razin Hafizi @ Busu :) – His storytelling story…

Our youngest ace, Razin Hafizi is truly a gift from Allah SWT.  12 years ago when we got him, it was almost impossible as I was on my contraceptive pills as me and hubby thought, with 4 aces at the time, our family was complete.

Story cut short, I got pregnant anyway in 2004 in our new home, then.  We were shocked, bit worry (at the time as I usually had terrible pregnancies) but never we did not cite our Syukur Alhamdulillah to Allah SWT, we have faith that as He wills it, it has to be the best, for us.

Razin came the easiest.  Delivery was made easy.  Within 2 hours, he popped out already hehe.  And being the biggest too!!  A bouncing 3.75 kg baby!

Being our youngest, he gets away with lotsa of things at home.  Its like his Kak Long repeats herself.  New toys.  New gadgets.  New games. You name it – he got it all.

He is 12 years old today, all well and healthy Alhamdulillah.

And yesterday marked another happy and memorable day for us in the family – rasa syukur sangat-sangat.  Allah SWT that has given us so much!!

Razin was chosen and represented his school yesterday to this ‘Pertandingan Bercerita Bahasa Inggeris – The Prophet Story sempena Karnival Dakwah Sekolah-Sekolah Malaysia’.

Let me share few photos first from yesterday ya.

*We were getting him all dressed up with his new baju melayu bought specially for the competition.  Ayah being the biggest supporter balik from Kuantan terus angkut kami gi carik baju melayu.  Ayah memang best lah!

Then later Ustazah sent us this gambar, while he was getting ready for the stage.

Ok this is a special tribute to his Ustazah/Teacher that he called Ustazah Aen.  This teacher is random.  I have met a lot of teachers throughout my life.  My own teachers, my children’s teachers, in fact I have lotsa good friends who are teachers. Not to mention in our family pun, there are so many teachers too.

But this Ustazah Aen is one of the best that I have met.  We are blessed to have her for our son.  She is very dedicated, too hardworking and passionate with what she chose for her life – teaching!

I must say this to her – she had taught my son a valuable lesson – that hard work pays.  That if you are polite and dedicate, Allah will wills you what you want.  They both had long hours training, preparing for this competition, regardless of weekends – as the time was short for practise.

You see, Razin has always been playful when it comes to school 🙂  Ambik acuh tak acuh sahaja.  But with this Ustazah, he becomes someone else- lah.  Our dearest son begitu dedicated dan rajin melatih dan mencabar diri dia sendiri untuk Berjaya.  Thumbs up both of you!!

To Ustazah who we are forever terhutang budi – thank you! Mudahan Allah SWT will reward you awesomely too for all your kindness and sincerity 🙂

Mudahan ukhwah dan sillaturahim kita tidak terhenti di sini.  Doakan Razin selalu and to Razin too, teachers are like your parents.  Always respect them and doa for them.

Razin, live during the competition day, yesterday.  Ustazah sent us so many videos that im unable to upload here 🙂 We both were thrilled throughout hehe.  We were back and forth texting 😛

The result came out.

And he did it! And I was over the mooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! *dancing.

Bukan happy sebab dia menang tempat ke 3 out of almost 20 participants from various schools,  but happy that he finally found his forte!.

He was confident and it was a seamless story telling.  Alhamdulillah and Syabas anakanda ku sayang.  Ibu doakan Razin terus bersemangat and taste more success in both this dunia, and hereafter.

And when I received this text from ustazah, I said – Syukur Alhamdulillah Ya Allah.  For both Razin Hafizi our son, and Ustazah Aen !

Arwah Ayahanda Ali bin Salleh

Dengan lafaz Bismillahi rrohma nirrahim.  Dengan Nama Allah yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang.

This is my dad.

Ayah, I called him.  His name is Ali bin Salleh.

He passed away on 15 March 2001, only five days after Sarah was born.  So sixteen years ago it has been, today 😦

Innalillahi wainna ilaihi rojiun.

Alfatihah to arwah Ayah.  Sesungguhnya janji Allah SWT itu pasti.  Dan hanya kepadaNya kita semua akan kembali, kekal dan abadi.

And everytime on Sarah’s birthday (10/10), it is like a reminder for me of him.  Both me and Sarah will talk about him. I will rewind the story about my dad and his passing  – who passed away only after 5 days she arrived into this world.

He never got the chance to meet or hold our *Sarah 😦 …..

My dad was a tall handsome gentleman with sharp face bone features.

In this dunia, arwah my dad and arwah my mom were separated as their jodoh tidak kesampaian.  Not all marriage is a bed of roses..  Hence, being the youngest I have the fewest memories of him compared to my other sibs.

But I have no bad feeling or gestures towards him.  He was my only dad, dunia dan akhirat.  Allah SWT in all His Greatness and Wisdom prepares something else for us all, InsyaAllah.

And in every of my solat, I will cite his name and pray that Allah SWT will reward him Jannah. Both him and my arwah mom, InsyaAllah.

Bersemadi lah dengan aman bersama para solihin, Ayah.  InsyaAllah kami pasti datang menyusulmu.

Al Fatihah 😦 …

Our princess, Sarah Kamilia is 16!

As March approaches every year, Ibu will have this headache.

What to get you.  As you grew a year older, Ibu dah ran out of idea dah.

So, usually your lil sister, Syaza will be my eyes and ears – of what you want.

Nonetheless, on top of what your birthday present is, here is a little something that I wrote, coming straight from heart, from Ibu to Sarah.

Dear Sarah,

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Everytime Ibu look at you, I see myself in you.  Seemingly hard as a rock, but truth is, your heart is like the soft jelly 🙂  Tears hardly rolls down your cheek, but sometimes Ibu sees your worry and sadness thru your eyes.

Wellll, mayyy beee Ibu cries a bit more than you do, but deep down I know you have so much love for everyone around you as you worry for almost everyone.  Even a stranger or a cat !

You just love too much.  But that is you.  Being the middle child probably taught you that sharing can be sweet and magical – as love is spread through sharing.

In return, your lil cousins love you the most.  That I am sure.  They bugged you.  They bullied you.  Yet they hugged and kissed you, the most 🙂

Your heart my be small, but Allah in all His Greatness, gives you so much space to love so much and so many, Alhamdulillah.

Dear Sarah,

Ibu once told you that ‘Sarah’ means happiness.  ‘Sarah’ is joy.  And whoever named Sarah, they just love to laugh.  And I think that is very true.  You have the loudest laugh in our home, not too mention your burp (oopsie).

And, even Ibu does not say it often or mocked you when you laughed out loud, but truth is Ibu loves it.  It makes me very happy to see you smiling and laughing away everytime.  I pray for you to have a happy life, always and forever.

Sarah kesayangan Ibu,

You are 16 this year.  You have outgrown my lap dah.  Well, just the lap yeah? Never my heart?  Please always know that in your heart.

You will always be my little Sarah that I love so much.  Who I probably scolded the most (sigh) but who is also always and will stand tall and strong next to me.  For that, Ibu thank you. Xixi!

As today is your birthday, you are off-lah from your routine chores at home hehe 😛

Just go and have fun.  Hope we will find you a present that you truly want for this year, yeah?

So, take care of yourself always, Sayang.  Study hard and smart.  I know in my heart, you will be okay and successful in both this dunia and hereafter, InsyaAllah.

Ya Allah Ar-Rahman,

Today is Sarah’s 16th birthday.  Kasih dan Rahmati lah anakanda kami.  Jadikan dia insan solehah di dunia dan di akhirat.

Amin Amin YRA.

Happy Birthday dear Princess!! and as your birthday present comes bit early, enjoy selfie-ing ya ! 🙂

Happy Birthday Kak Yong! You are officially 11 :)

We sang a birthday song yesterday, a day early to celebrate Kak Yong Damia Qaisarah bt Nasrul Rizal’s birthday (amboi complete hehe).

You actually turns 11 today on March 6, Kak Yong!  Alhamdulillah…

We had such a good time kan? With complete battalion of the dangdut gangs huhu and Mc Donalds could never go wrong for birthday celebrations, I supposed.

Nanti Ibu upload gambar lagi as Kak Sarah updates me.

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Damia Qaisarah who we fondly called Kak Yong is the eldest child to my SIL, Awa.

Damia is like our very own.  She grows up right in front of our very own eyes (me and your beloved Pak Lang).  Every single second of your growing up years…

And Ibu must say this – yes being a child, have still have your tantrums, but you have outgrown your age Sayang.  Being the eldest, you are very responsible and loving, towards your sibs especially.  And helpful too with Mommy, I am sure Mommy and Daddy appreciate it very much.  May be they do not tell you often enough, but trust me, they do!

Ibu am very sure as years passed, you will be the daughter all mothers dream of, InsyaAllah.

Continue to be kind Sayang.  Ibu doakan Kak Yong terus cemerlang dan berjaya dalam hidup Kak Yong.  May Allah Ar Rahim protects you from all evilness in this world and look after you always.

If one day when you are all grown up and successful and stumbled into Ibu’s blog, please always know in your heart that, Ibu loves you very much.  You are like my very own.

Have a good day today Kak Yong ya,  (6 March) being a 11 year old. hehe

Go and have funnnn 🙂 and happy birthday again.

(Note to Kak Sarah – thank you for baking the cake for the Damia).  You are the best.

My Happy pills!

My happy pills every time.

#tb to January 2017 (major throwback).  Kuantan trip to send Along back.

Our Juniors captured from afar.  Tengah cari view best :)
Our Juniors captured from afar.  Depa tengah cari view best 🙂

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One human being who has been super patient with my many tantrums.  Alhamdulillah for you, betterhalf.

And, our other happy pill – enjoying good food with loved ones.

#Gelorasteakshouse highly recommended in this photo. Malay owned, professional and food is up to our standard.  Alhamdulillah.  Not too pricey or too cheap neither. Affordable.

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Good time with all sibs together.  Love you guys to bits.

Happy a resting weekend peeps.

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You know life is like that, and there will be ‘that’ time when you just feel like a failure.  Just at everything.

And whenever it does happen, this is my comfort place.  Where I came and write what is in my heart.  Next to my creator, this is where no one says anything, but just read.  To my words.  and probably  feel my cry 😦

Pause.

It breaks my heart every time and every time.

Sigh.

Just be the best of yourselves.  Do not be like me 😦