I Am Too Accommodating

Blame it on aging or whatever but I am just plainly tired.

Almost with everything.

I realized how human beings in this life differ from one another.  God knows why for that. As for me, I like to think I have been very accommodating for lot of people, either people around me or people in my life. In return, many has taken me for granted.  They seemed to have this crazy idea that nice people is okay to be treated however they wished. And I just had enough. Period.

Perhaps it is about the right time for me to be bolder.

I have accomplished many things along the way and I speak my mind most of the time but perhaps I have been careful of hurting people’s feeling but only ended getting hurt at the end??. Perhaps I should have not been ‘too’ kind and ‘too’ accommodating. Like what we always said, too much of everything is obviously bad, bad, bad and bad – and that should be the number one rule of living.

I remembered how I look up and have my utmost respect to those who has been kind in my life. I appreciate and only have my admiration for them. Not too mention, how much I love them. Sincerely. Indifintely.

But come my time, I realized I am just either being ignored or mistreated. Life is indeed not fair eh sometimes. Well, to me at least.

I have seen with my very own eyes and heard with my own ears – fairy tales of how nice human beings been treated like shit and vice versa. God !!

Well, anyway, gone 2007 and here I am today breathing the new embrace of 2008.  And I do not wish to be very accommodating anymore. Too much of it already and I personally think it is indeed hazardous for my health.

Adios old hani, welcome new soul. There I said it.

~ by Hani on January 28, 2008.